Yeah, I'd hope this would stay between us, Dean...
[He kind of envied how easy Dean was with this... how he could wake up naked and in bed with his brother and be okay. He still nodded slowly at those words, pushing back that feeling that... said he'd never be normal. That he never felt normal and everything always felt off, no matter how much he tried...]
[He couldn't really throw blame at Dean either because he remembered... he remembered him giving him a lot of opportunities to back out and Sam had just kept at it, huh?] Maybe...
[He'd wanted it to be though. The fact that just the memory of it stirred something not entirely unpleasant meant that it wasn't going to be though, even if they never touched each other again. He looked down again.] I think I really need some aspirin now...
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[He kind of envied how easy Dean was with this... how he could wake up naked and in bed with his brother and be okay. He still nodded slowly at those words, pushing back that feeling that... said he'd never be normal. That he never felt normal and everything always felt off, no matter how much he tried...]
[He couldn't really throw blame at Dean either because he remembered... he remembered him giving him a lot of opportunities to back out and Sam had just kept at it, huh?] Maybe...
[He'd wanted it to be though. The fact that just the memory of it stirred something not entirely unpleasant meant that it wasn't going to be though, even if they never touched each other again. He looked down again.] I think I really need some aspirin now...