Sam can't hold his liquor (for whatheneeds)

[onlytobenormal]

I... _{[That got him laughing too and maybe actually flushing a little bit.]} Shut up, Dean! I care about getting laid plenty! Just- it hasn't happened yet... but it will!

_{((Continued from here))}

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[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

[He opened his eyes and moved a little further up Sam, just sort of looking at him]

[onlytobenormal]

_{[He felt the other moving up his body, but was a little reluctant to look and see what he was doing... probably just getting more comfortable. He did let his hand rub absently over his back.]}

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

Just.....tell me wha to do and I'll do it. Tell me how to fix all this.

[onlytobenormal]

Dean. _{[He finally opened his eyes, looking at the other.]} There's no fixing it, man... You can't just make it go away like that.

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

I don't know what to do Sam....

[onlytobenormal]

What do you want to do? _{[He could say what he wanted and be selfish and yeah, probably make things difficult again, but he didn't want to do that... not when things felt kinda okay again... He did lift a hand to kind of awkwardly rest on the side of the other's face.]}

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

[He was still out of it enough to leane against the hand]. Your hand is warm.

[onlytobenormal]

_{[He let his finger slide down the other's face, enough to let his thumb brush just under his lower lip. Really shouldn't be doing this, but Dean was leaning into him and he was drunk enough to convince himself it was alright.]} You're warm too...

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

Am I? [He smiled, too drunk to think second guess this]

[onlytobenormal]

Dean... _{[He paused, hesitating a moment.]} What am I supposed to do?

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

I got nothin [he laughed]

[onlytobenormal]

_{[he gives a soft laugh of his own. Kind of figured that'd be the answer...]} Can you- Can you stop looking at me like that, dude? Don't want to do something stupid and it's kinda hard when you're this close and I- keep thinking about it. _{[Especially when Dean was letting him get away with more touches than he should already.]}

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

What....what if I like looking at you this way?

[onlytobenormal]

_{[Sam made this little noise in the back of his throat, something between frustrated and scared because it felt like Dean was challenging him or being massively stupid and Sam was too drunk to deal with this.]} Dean, please... m'gonna do something stupid and wrong and you're gonna freak out again no matter what you say. _{[And if he'd been sober, he'd be beyond embarrassed that his expression was all pinched up like he was about to start crying. Well, sober him wouldn't be freaking out in the first place.]}

And then you'll start avoiding me again and- I don't want to be alone like I'm some nasty freak. _{[He could handle Dean ditching him sometimes for girls, he couldn't handle Dean avoiding him all the time because he was grossed out or uncomfortable.]}

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

But I.....[He ducked his head, suddenly a little embarassed]. Ok...sorry Sam....good nightl....

[onlytobenormal]

It's- _{[He took in a deep breath, squirming a little again, fidgeting as he tried to calm back down.]} It's fine. It's just- I don't know what you want me to do.

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

Yeah....yeah I don't either...sorry, I'm an idiot [And he really didn't know what he wanted to happen. He shut his eyes in embarrassment and started to get off the couch]

[onlytobenormal]

Where are you going? Dean... _{[He didn't actually want him to move away... even if he should.]}

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

Nowhere, I was just gonna leave you alone, maybe head to bed.

[onlytobenormal]

Dean, come on, sorry... I just- I'm trying to make it okay and then you do stuff like that, like get close and give me these looks and it makes me wonder stupid crap like if you really want it or not.

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

I know, I'm stupid. I don't....I don't know what I want so I thought if....[He shook his head, red with embarassment] at least then I would know.

[onlytobenormal]

_{[Sam pushed himself up a little, getting closer to Dean, quiet for a moment or so.]} Do you want me to? And dude, if I do, do you promise not to start avoiding me again? 'Cause if you do, I'm seriously going to punch you.

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

Just forget it, it was a dumb idea. [He still couldn't look at Sam at the mometn]

[onlytobenormal]

_{[He let out another irritated noise. Screw it. He was leaning in for another kiss and Dean couldn't insist later he hadn't at least given some signals for it.]}