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Sam hadn't been gone an hour and that alone should alert Dean to something being wrong. Today should have been a long one--full of late classes and maybe meeting with friends after and getting in just in time to see his big brother off in time for work. Maybe give him something more than just a goodbye kiss, if they were both feeling up for it.

But it wasn't the case today. Sam was running in the front door, slamming it shut behind him. He looked breathless and flushed, like he'd been running and wide-eyed... maybe even scared. He didn't know if Dean would be awake or still resting up before work, but maybe the ruckus would have startled him. Either way, plans had changed, things had gone to shit like he'd feared they would right from the start.

Maybe he'd cry if every instinct in him wasn't screaming to run, to hide, and maybe to protect his big brother, protect them. Oh god, they'd need protecting too.

"Dean!" he called out, moving towards the bedroom. "Dean, we need to talk, now."

God, what were they going to do... this was so bad.

Everyone... God, everyone he knew and even people he didn't-- they knew. They knew and there was everything from disgust to filthy comments that had his stomach turning to... oh god, just everything. Even offers to help him get help of some kind to questioning if Dean was making him do this somehow because who could possibly fuck their own sibling willingly--which nearly got him to lose his temper.

That's when he left.

But that wasn't even the end more disturbing news. There was so much more than that.

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Sam leaned in when he was pulled, his hands rubbing down his brother's back, keeping him close. It was so much easier to forget when he had Dean up against hi like this, his fingers working him open like that as he felt the cool tile press into his back.

He moaned softly against his lips, pressing back against those fingers and in to grind against Dean as he let that kiss linger. God, they shouldn't be doing this probably, but he couldn't bring himself to give it up.

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There was no way Dean could deny Sam anything. Not right now, when his brother was hurting and needed him. Maybe it wasn't the smartest thing he'd ever done to suggest shower sex to Sam so soon after all this, but he wanted his brother to feel good.

The way Sam was moving and moaning like that just made him want to give him even more.

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Maybe it was stupid to rush into this, to press for his brother to fuck him in the shower when it was fucking that landed them in this mess, but... it was a comfort, for both of them hopefully. A way to be close.

When the kiss was ended, he lapped at the other's lips teasingly, his breath heavy and his eyes half-lidded. "Dean..."

He squirmed a little back against those fingers. Wasn't the same without the lube, but it wasn't bad. Right now, he was just eager for anything anyway, as long as it was Dean giving it to him. "Love you."

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Sex had always been comfort for Dean. Before Sam, it was sometimes the only human contact he got for days. With Sam, it was so much better than just body contact. It was love and affection and he needed it, all that he could get. "Love you, too, Sammy. Always gonna."

It took longer than usual usual, but when Dean felt Sam ready for more he gently withdrew his fingers and nudged him to turn around.

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By the time Dean had nudged him to turn around, Sam was already breathing heavy, expression hazy as he turned, leaned against the wall, cheek pressed against the tile. His head angled so he could watch his brother, eyes lingering over him. "Dean, please... need you."

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"Can have me whenever you want me," he answered gently, hand on Sam's hip, the other hand guiding his cock slowly into Sam. The slow pace was necessary without lube and even if it wasn't, slow seemed best for now. He didn't want to hurry this. Wanted to keep Sam close and keep them together as long as possible. "Love you so much."

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There was a quiet noise when he felt Dean pressing against him, easing in. His entire focus was on the stretch and slight burn as Dean filled him. Loved it, loved feeling this. He smiled, reaching down to cover the hand on his hip with his own, just wanting the contact. "Love you too, Dean... always will." He let out a soft sigh. "Mm, feel so good..."

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He kissed and nuzzled against Sam's shoulder and the back of his neck. He pushed in slow and stopped when he was pressed chest to his back. While they were adjusting, he murmured softly against Sam's skin. "Never gonna let go of you. Not ever. Want you in my arms and in my life forever."

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Sam rolled his hips back against Dean's when he was pushed in as deep as he'd go, eyes drifting shut. Always felt good when they were together, didn't matter how. Right now, it just felt good to have Dean curled around him like that too, covering him in a way he wouldn't admit to enjoying right now.

He turned his head away, forehead pressing against the shower wall, eyes drifting shut at those words. It was sappy and stupid how it made his stomach flip, something in his chest tighten. "... God, Dean--" He let out a soft breath. "Always got me... Don't want to lose you."

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"You won't. Promise." He slipped one arm around Sam's waist and the other hand reached around to take hold of his brother's cock and stroke him slowly as he started to move. He moaned against Sam's shoulder, nuzzling at the skin. To hell with anyone who might hear. They definitely needed this.

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He gasped softly when he felt the other's hand come around to stroke him, his hands going to rest against the arm around his waist, tightening a little over him. He moaned out--because who'd hear them around here? Or guess they were brothers?

"Oh, god... love the way you feel."

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The pace slowly increased. Dean couldn't stay slow. Sam felt and sounded too good around him and against him.

"I love you. Love you so much." He kissed and nipped at Sam's shoulder. "Feel so good."

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Sam was panting against the wall, leaning more into it as Dean started to go faster. He moaned deeply, pressing back against him. "Dean--" He practically whimpered. The slow build was incredible, hearing Dean's voice against his skin was even better.

"Just like that, Dean..." He bit at his lower lip, finally looking over his shoulder, trying to get a glimpse of him. "You feel so perfect..."

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Dean met his eyes over his shoulder and nodded, perfectly willing to give him whatever he wanted right now. Even more so than usual. He smiled at the compliment and bent to kiss whatever skin he could reach.

His hand moved faster along Sam's length, squeezing a little more as it moved. Normally, this would be the point where he was leering and encouraging Sam to get loud, but he wasn't sure if that would be welcome anymore. Instead, he held on tighter and just panted his brother's name as he got closer to the edge.

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Sam gasped, arching his back to press against Dean, one hand going to press against the shower wall, nails raking over the smooth, slippery surface while his other hand tightened on Dean's arm around his waist. He couldn't help a louder moan, bucking into Dean's hand. God--"Dean... Dean--"

Knew his brother was getting closer and he rolled his hips back against him, into the hand on his cock, just losing himself in the sensations. "Love you... God, I love you."

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"Love you, too. I love you." His mouth was on auto-pilot as much as his body. He couldn't stop now. So close. God, it felt so good to be pressed up against Sam like this, buried hard and deep, hearing his brother calling out for him like that.

A moment later he was calling Sam's name a little louder, the thrusting of his hips going erratic even though his hand stayed steady on Sam's cock. He came hard, hips rocking into his brother as he rode out the waves.

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Sam was squirming desperately, wanting more contact, any contact, that desire overriding everything else but Dean. Felt so good to have Dean calling his name, pushing in deep and hard. His forehead pressed back to the wall as he bucked desperately into his brother's hand, chasing his own release.

"Dean--" The name was more desperate, louder on his tongue, followed by a deep moan as he finally came, body going tense.

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Dean held on tightly and kept his hand moving and his hips pushing into Sam. Wanted to draw out his brother's orgasm for as long as possible. Sam needed every second of peace and pleasure he could get.

When he felt Sam going still, he slowed his hand, but kept holding his softening cock gently. His hips thrust in once more and stayed buried deep and pressed close into Sam.

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Sam whimpered softly against the shower wall, spent and sated. He wasn't in any hurry to feel Dean pull away either, wanted to keep feeling him buried in deep like that. He angled his head again, groping behind him to grasp at the other's hip lightly, holding on.

"Mnh..."

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His hand slowly slipped off of Sam's cock and Dean wrapped that arm around his brother too. Leaned against him and rubbed his cheek against his shoulder, catching his breath.

"Y'okay?"

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"Mhm..." His hands settled over Dean's arms around him. "Felt good, Dean..." Always did and it felt good to just have Dean pressed up against him now as they both recovered from that.

"You okay?"

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"Yeah, I'm good." Dean stayed pressed up close for a long few minutes until he caught his breath and he felt Sam calming down. Then he gently withdrew, but quickly pressed himself right back up against him. Rubbed his face back and forth between Sam's shoulder blades.

"Don't wanna get out..."

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He sighed at the contact between them, arching slightly against Dean. "Me either..." Though he did start to turn around, wanting to face Dean. He leaned in, lips grazing the other pair lightly.

"Glad we still have this, you know... Don't want to lose it."

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"You won't lose me. Stuck with me." Dean loosened his hold while his brother turned, then kissed him back gently. He leaned his forehead against Sam's and smiled. "Stuck like flypaper. Like glue. Like maple syrup. Mmmm... syrup."

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That earned a short snort, eyebrows arching. "Getting a little hungry there, dude?"