I don't know how to let you go [For whatheneeds

[onlytobenormal]

<sub>[Dean needed the sleep. He deserved it, so Sam hadn't come back to the motel room that night. He'd found another place to wait out the day, get some rest himself. He came back that night though... couldn't stay away. What he should have done was get out as fast as he could, as far away from Dean so he didn't have to follow him, could forget about him eventually... maybe.

But he didn't do that.

He checked around to make sure Dad's truck wasn't anywhere to be seen before he went to check the door, tapping on it to be let in. Figured Dean'd be locked up and he didn't want to break in if Dean was there tonight.]

((Continued from here!))</sub>

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[onlytobenormal]

_{[Since Dean doesn't let him go, he slouches back against him. He could get away if he really wanted, but... he didn't want to.]} Just been a long week... I was scared I'd never get to see you again.

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

You thought you'd never see me again? I was out looking everywhere for you man. Probably would have kept lookin too, if you hadn't found me. Fuck I don't think I've gone that long without you around in years....it didnt go well.

[onlytobenormal]

Sorry I didn't come sooner... I just- I was terrified, man. _{[He didn't know how Dean would react, didn't know what he'd say.]} Still am. I don't know what to do now, Dean...

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

Yeah...neither do I. [he paused for a moment, voice shaking a little when he finally spokenagain]. What do you wanna do Sam? Honestly?

[onlytobenormal]

I don't know, Dean... I wanted to finish school and I wanted to get out of hunting. That's all I've been thinking about, but... _{[That wasn't happening, none of it.]} I don't want to hurt anyone. I don't want to become a total monster and I'm scared I will one day.

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

What if..what if you do turn me, and I can't keep you in check? You made the choice not to hurt peopl, what if I become a psycho or something?

[onlytobenormal]

I don't think you would... Dude, if I can do it, surely you can.

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

Who knows? And what if lie 100 years from now we can't remember whybwe're not supposed to hurt people? [He knew he was just trying to make excuses to get himself to change his mind]

[onlytobenormal]

I know you, Dean, and I know you don't want to hurt people. _{[Wasn't he the one always going on that he was a hero? He sighed, shifting a little closer.]} Then it'd be time for us to kill ourselves.

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

I... [He wanted to believe Sam was right, that they would be ok]. ...okay

[onlytobenormal]

Okay, what? _{[He looked up, confused.]}

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

Okay I.. [fuck he couldnt even get himself to say it. He just shook his head and forced a smie]. Nothing, you should get some sleep.

[onlytobenormal]

Yeah, guess so... _{[He slouched back against the other, head back on his shoulder for a moment before he tried to draw away again.]}

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

[He held on for a second longer before inlay letting go]. Sorry, god I'm being such a girl.

[onlytobenormal]

_{[He shrugged, laying his head on the pillow, but staying close.]} I don't really mind... At least you're not scared to touch me.

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

No, why would I be?

[onlytobenormal]

Most people wouldn't want a vampire within biting distance, dude.

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

[He raised an eyebrow and smirked, moving his head so his neck was exposed]. Should I be worried Sammy?

[onlytobenormal]

_{[His eyes trailed to Dean's neck before he looked away, shaking his head.]} No... no. I ate. _{[Though it might not mean he doesn't want more already and human blood was- better.]} Jerk.

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

You sure? [He laughed]. I probably taste awesome.

[onlytobenormal]

Dude, don't tease me... _{[He shrugged, looking down.]} I'm sure you do, but I doubt you want to be a snack.

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

No, I think you'd be sad if you ate me, I'm your only friend. You'd be screwed if you ate me.

[onlytobenormal]

Yeah, I would. _{[He gave a weak laugh at that.]} I'm not gonna eat you, Dean.

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

So then I don't need to be scared [He layton his head back down on the pillow].

[onlytobenormal]

Yeah... _{[He scooted a little closer, reaching out to hold onto the other's shirt sleeve. Just... wanted to make sure he stayed, even if it was probably kind of weird.]}