been too long (for siswinchester)

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It had been two months and three days. He'd been counting, as much as he hadn't wanted to be this hung up on his sister's visits or not. They'd talked... quite a bit over the phone, though he'd shied away from what they'd done over the weekend for the most part. Mostly because he'd been freaked out for the first couple weeks as the realization sunk in and then he didn't... know how to bring it up over the phone.

He didn't know what to say about the fact he'd fucked his own sister multiple times, that he knew it hadn't been just-- for the physical thrill of it. But the more time he had to make peace with the fact, the less the guilt weighed on him. It hadn't felt wrong, it hadn't-- been wrong. It had been between them, it hadn't hurt anyone else.

He didn't know if that meant they should do it again... probably not. It couldn't go anywhere or be anything, it sure as hell didn't factor into this new life of his. Unfortunately, he didn't know if logically knowing something was a bad idea would mean crap if he was faced with a drunk, horny sister again, especially when he couldn't help but thin of those times together. Not that he was going to admit most his fantasies involved his own sister riding him, calling out for him.

Especially not to said sister.

Despite all the risks though, Sam finally convinced her to come for a visit and she promised, promised she'd be in by Friday after his classes. Sam would be lying if he said he wasn't anxiously checking his watch, waiting... trying to keep his thoughts from drifting to what he'd like to be doing with her this weekend--which involved mostly varying states of undress in the middle of just hanging out like they used to.

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Yeah, two fuckin' months. She went over a year without him and then two months felt like forever. It sucked. She didn't quite understand what was wrong with her. She tried to act about the same as she did before the whole...weekend with Sam thing, but it just wasn't working. She had a few hookups since then-- random guys she met at bars, but damn it if she didn't think of Sam every time. It was fuckin' with her brain.

She called him whenever she could manage, when Dad was off doing something, when she could creep off, making phone calls to her brother like some teenage girl with a secret boyfriend. They never exactly talked about what had happened between them, she sort of figured he was just freaked out about all of it now that she was away and he could think straight again.

He was damn adamant about her coming back though, and she couldn't exactly argue with him anymore, she missed him too much. Before she was too far away though, busy with Dad. But he sort of begged and Dana couldn't say no. So she promised him she would be in by Friday.

Bringing it up with Dad was a bit of a difficult thing to do. She decided she wasn't going to lie about where she was going, she just straight out told him she was seeing Sammy. The argument that ensued wasn't very pretty.

Best not to let Sam know about any of that though. She was a bit jittery as she sat back against the hood of the Impala, hands shoved in her shorts pockets, sunglasses perched on her nose as she waited, maybe a bit anxiously, for Sam to get out of class.

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Well, she hadn't surprised him with any embarrassing moments with his friends--that was good. That was really good, honestly. He smiled when he spotted her settled on the hood of the Impala and didn't waist a moment heading over to her. "Dana, you're here."

When he left for college... hell, for the year and some months that followed, he couldn't even bring himself to talk about her, let alone ever let himself think he'd be overly thrilled to see her. But here he was, actually... happy to see that familiar face. His smile lengthened as he came to a stop in front of her.

"You want to head to my place or something? We can order a pizza if you're too tired to go out."

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It was almost pathetic the urge to go to him and kiss him until she couldn't breath was. God, she wanted to. But she kept herself where she was, feet planted on the ground unless they started to move against her will.

The smile he beamed at her though was damn near contagious and she grinned back as he stopped about a foot away from her (a foot too far in her opinion). " 'course I'm here, where else would I be?" She teased with a roll of her eyes at that, though he couldn't see it behind the dark tint of her sunglasses.

Her hands were twitching in her pockets as she looked up at him. She wanted to reach out, touch him. The hell did she start having urges like this? Shrugging, she pushed up off the hood. "Sounds fine by me, I'm starving though, so you better make sure that pizza gets there fast." Were they just going to act normal? It was a bit strange to be interacting with him like this, especially after what happened and the following two months she went without him again.

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It wasn't like the desire wasn't there to crush her back against him... he'd had two months to think about that one weekend, to long for it and to try and talk himself out of it. He'd thought he'd mostly been talked out of it, that he'd decided it was stupid... but seeing her here, grinning at him like that--

It was hard. The urges were back and felt harder to ignore than even the last time. Unfortunately, he couldn't exactly act on them in public. "You're always starving, Dana," he protested lightly at that comment, but the teasing hardly stopped him from stepping in fast, letting himself wrap his arms around her.

A hug in public... that was fine.

And damn, he felt it was needed anyway. Two months ago, he hadn't thought she'd come back near him again. "... Missed you, you know," he murmured quietly, maybe a little embarrassed before he drew away.

"Come on, let's go."

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Dana let out a small sound of disappointment as he shifted away, but she didn't say anything against it. Instead, chuckling, she tilted her head, looking up at him with a smile.

"More interesting than the last weekend I was here?"

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"Maybe." He reached out for her, to try and tug her back to his side. "I mean, we can definitely try, right?"

And he wasn't going to focus on anything else... at least not tonight. "Leaving Monday morning again?"

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"Oh, I'm all for trying Sammy." Dana curled into his side easily, wrapping an arm around him as she lay her head against his shoulder. At his question, she hesitated, eyes flickering up to his face for a moment.

"Ah, well..." She hesitated, she hadn't wanted to bring this up so soon. "I don't...think so."

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Dana chuckled a bit breathlessly at that. Smirking against his skin, she nuzzled close. "It's okay, you're gonna get your fill of me sooner or later and then there will be no touching at all." She teased, arms tightening around him for a moment. She hoped that wasn't really the case at least.

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"You really think that?" He snorted, pressing a quick kiss to her cheek before he started trying to lower her back to the floor. Definitely needed to sit down a moment after that and catch his breath.

"Come on... let's get back to the couch."

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"No, not really. Because, please, who can get sick of me?" The smirk stayed in place on her lips, legs shaky as he set her down. Wow. She held on to his arm still for support and nodded. "Yeah, couch sounds good." She agreed, walking with him to it to settle down before her legs gave out beneath her.

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As far as Dana was concerned, her being involved in his life in any way ruined normal for him.

Looking up at him, she nodded, sighing. "Yeah, sorry, I think I'm sorta out of it right now. Need sleep."

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He reached out to ruffle her hair lightly when he passed back by. "Yeah... come on, Dana."

On the plus side, at least... his bed wasn't going to be empty tonight. That was a pleasant thought. Heading to the bedroom, he went to pull the covers down and settle in. Maybe they'd figure more out in the morning when their heads cleared. Today had been pretty-- busy. Jarring.

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As always when he did that, she pulled a face, pushing to stand up and follow after him after tossing away her empty beer can.

Yeah...she hadn't enjoyed sleeping alone either those two months away, so she was gladly looking forward to falling asleep with him. Stifling another yawn as they reached the bed, Dana wiggled her pants off before crawling into it after he flipped the covers down, burrowing herself down with a content sigh, eyes already closing.

Today had been long. Stressful at some points. Exhausting overall.

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She arched a brow at that, a smile pulling at her lips. "Aw. I think that's...sweet, or somethin'. Ya know, if we weren't talkin' about whorin' myself for money."

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That gets a laugh out of him. "How about you start off looking for, you know, normal jobs? Waitress or something, I don't know." He'd have to think. It wasn't like his sister was talentless or anything... or not good at adapting. Just had to find something she'd like...

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"Waitress. Right." She sighed, starting up the car. That sounded...really unappealing. Most likely though what she'd end up being.

She could always bring up the stripper idea again...

Nah, would never happen. If anything, it was just something funny to make Sam all squeaky like he was before.

"Where to for breakfast?"

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Normal. What was normal anyways? Who really defined that word? What was the definition even? Of course, Dana had thought about all this before, pondered it. But no matter what, society would always look down on what her and Sam were doing. Sam had wanted normal, said as much to her when he left her and dad. So whatever they had now was jeopardizing that for him, ruin it completely if they were found out by anybody.

She squeezed his hand a bit tighter, almost afraid for a brief second of what she would do if she lost him for any reason. She would just have to...make sure that would never happen. All her life her number one priority had been to look out for Sam and she wouldn't stop now.

Then they were pulling into the large parking structure outside the mall, their drive, short or long, she hadn't really quite noticed, over now.

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When Dana had parked, he let her hand go and slowly eased out, waiting for her to join him so they could walk in, but... he didn't reach for her hand. It was nice to do in the car, yeah, but no way could they get away with it in a public place like this.

"So, where are we going to first?"

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"Any store that catches my interest first?" She strolled along aside him, not going to admit she was a bit disappointed at the loss of contact.

Dana wasn't much for brand names or certain stores for their status. Just, mostly whatever she saw and liked was how she shopped.

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Dana chuckled at that response, shaking her head as they started walking. "Nah, kinda want to just drop off all these bags. Less you wanna go some where else, but back to the apartment is fine with me."

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"Apartment's fine, yeah. We have a load to drop off here, anyway." Especially Dana. It as kind fun, despite all complaints, to see her enjoying herself this much.

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So they headed back to the car, and Jesus, she was glad to because she was sick of hauling around all the bags. She bought too much shit.

After popping the trunk, she tossed all her things in, lips twitching a bit as she thought about how...normal it was to toss shopping bags into her trunk instead of various weapons. Normal or weird, depending on how one looked at it.

After that though, she just shut the trunk and slid into the drivers side, perhaps a little too eager to get out of the public eye with the way she was itching to touch Sam all the damn time.

>.> I've been only slightly ashamed of my girlish squealing the past few hours.

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"Jesus..." She stood no chance with the way he moved his hips just right, worked her body like no one else. God, he already knew how to get the best responses out of her, knew her body so well. When had they become so attuned to each other, at least, in this way? There was no way to be any closer to him than they were now. And, fuck, she loved it.

She bucked and writhed beneath him, tossing her head back as she let out a cry of pleasure as her orgasm slammed through her body hard. "Sam!" She was hardly ashamed of the way she called out his name, almost desperately as she came for him.

Haha, what episode are you on?

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He groaned deeply as she came around him, called out for him like that. He knew they should probably be more careful about that-- the walls weren't sound proof and people might actually get suspicious if Dana kept calling out his name mid-orgasm, but damn if he cared right now. Didn't care because it's what he wanted, sent a jolt right through him. It only took a few more deep thrusts before he was coming hard into her, curling over her slightly as he rode out the pleasure.

Last one I saw was S 2 Ep. 15. Trickster for their first time. Soo funny. One before it though :c

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Now what exactly did he want her to do? If he was going to fuck her like that all the damn time, she couldn't exactly be quiet. She couldn't help the noises he made her make.

Dana could barely breath, barely keep herself up on one shaky arm. After she felt Sam follow her release, she all but collapsed straight down onto the bed beneath him, eyes shut as she focused on deep even breaths, because fuck if she didn't feel a tad like she might hyperventilate and that's something he would never let her live down if she did. "Fuck..." She groaned out after a moment, hand still curled into the sheets, almost like her fingers locked into place.