I don't know how to let you go [For whatheneeds

[onlytobenormal]

<sub>[Dean needed the sleep. He deserved it, so Sam hadn't come back to the motel room that night. He'd found another place to wait out the day, get some rest himself. He came back that night though... couldn't stay away. What he should have done was get out as fast as he could, as far away from Dean so he didn't have to follow him, could forget about him eventually... maybe.

But he didn't do that.

He checked around to make sure Dad's truck wasn't anywhere to be seen before he went to check the door, tapping on it to be let in. Figured Dean'd be locked up and he didn't want to break in if Dean was there tonight.]

((Continued from here!))</sub>

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[onlytobenormal]

I don't want vampire friends, dude. _{[He huffed a little.]} Not like I can put out a personal ad for them anyway... and I'm not- no. Dean!

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

So that's it then? [Dean frowned, laying his head back down on the pillow] After I kick the bucket you're just done with social interactions? Come on dude, that's not fair. And you think I wanna get all old and pruny while you stay handsome? That's gonna suck.

[onlytobenormal]

Dean, I'm a monster, man... after you're gone, then I'll- _{[he trailed off, hesitantly.]} So am I. I promised to stay alive with you... I didn't promise anything besides that.

_{[He laughed under his breath.]} What do you want me to say, Dean?

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

[Dean groaned and buried his face in his pillow] That's not fair. [After a minute he turned to look at Sam again] Hunters have enemies, what if I get offed in 5 years, or 1 year, or 6 months...you're just going to go to dad and get him to kill you?

[onlytobenormal]

If I can, I'm not going to let anyone hurt you, Dean. But yeah, I guess that's the plan.

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

[Dean's eyes narrowed a little and he turned over to face the wall]

[onlytobenormal]

Dean, what the hell do you want me to do, huh? _{[He turned away as well, glaring at the wall.]} I'm what we were raised to hunt now... how do you think that feels?

_{[He moved to sit up then, not sure he wanted to stay on the bed right now.]} Actually, I'm pretty sure you got an idea. It's why you couldn't let me change you, right? Because the idea is just- so hard to even wrap your mind around, Dean. Imagine how it is for me, actually being like this. It's not easy.

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

You don't think part of me just wants to let you do it? But I.... [But Sam was right, he couldn't willingly ask somebody to turn him into something they hunted, his well-trained mind just wouldn't let him do it. Dean sighed but didn't turn to look at Sam] Just go to bed.

[onlytobenormal]

Just stop getting pissed off like that when I say I want to die, Dean. You'd want the same in my spot, so don't get high and mighty with me. _{[He reluctantly laid back down, rolling so his back was facing Dean.]} You don't know what it's like.

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

No...I guess I don't [He mumbled, feeling almost guilty for not knowing. His brother was in pain and he couldn't help, he couldn't even understand it. For the first time he had no way of making Sam better and it ate at him]

[onlytobenormal]

_{[Sam was quiet, huddling under the covers, curling in on himself. He didn't feel much like sleeping, but he was kind of tired of arguing with Dean, didn't want to keep fighting about the same thing.]}

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

Can...can vampires even sleep at night? [He thought that was a safe question to ask, keep things light, maybe they could not argue for 5 minutes]

[onlytobenormal]

I guess so, yeah. _{[He answered quietly, voice soft. He was tired. didn't think he had the energy to keep arguing anyway.]}

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

Well do you have any powers? [He rolled over onto his back, staring up at the ceiling]. Like...can you turn into animals or fuck with people's minds? I don't know anything bout vamps except how to kill em.

[onlytobenormal]

No? I don't think so anyway. _{[He shrugged.]} The chick who turned me didn't give me the run down, Dean... she might have, but I ran the first chance I got.

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

Oh...well you should figure that stuff out. Maybe get a handbook?

[onlytobenormal]

Dude, alright. Let me go pick up a copy of Vampires for Dummies. _{[He shook his head.]} If I could mess up people's minds, I wouldn't have been begging you to go with me, Dean. and I'm pretty sure I can't change into anything.

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

Well did you try? Here, try a mind thing on me. See if you can do Jedi trick.

[onlytobenormal]

Like... what do I get you to try and do?

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

I don't know, anything you want. Just...nothing too embarrassing, no singing or dancing or anything.

[onlytobenormal]

_{[He gave a thoughtful hum before narrowing his eyes on the other in concentration. Felt like an idiot and he couldn't help the way his lips quirked up a little.]} Say Metallica sucks.

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

[He stared at Sam for a second, actually feeling kind of weird before shaking it off and glaring]. No way!

[onlytobenormal]

_{[He laughed softly.]} Guess that answers that, huh?

[whatheneeds.livejournal.com]

Well I did feel something for a second....it was weird.

[onlytobenormal]

Wait... you're being serious? _{[Sam looked nervous all of a sudden.]} Like what?