onlytobenormal | I don't know how to let you go [For whatheneeds

This is going to sound pathetic...mostly because it is, but I don't have much of a life that doesn't involve you. [He looks down, really uncomfortable] I don't know if this is a good idea...I don't know what I should do, and you don't know what I should do...so for right now I'm sticking around.

_{[That gets Sam to curl in a little further, wrapping his arms around Dean tightly and drawing him in for a hug, burying his face against his shoulder.]} No matter how much I think you should stay away from me... you're all I got, Dean. I don't want to lose that too.

I know Sam [He let himself be pulled into the hug and wrapped his arms tightly around the younger man] I never wanna have to leave you, you know that.

_{[He pressed himself in closer, not wanting to pull away.]} I'm sorry... I'm making this harder on you.

No it's okay. [He leaned his head on Sam's shoulder, wishing things were different and he could just tell Sam to turn him and get it over with]

_{[It wasn't like he couldn't get away if he wanted to... but Dean doing anything to himself stopped that idea. So all he could do was cling and try not to cry.]} So do we get put of here?

It's...uh...it's getting kind of late, is it safe to go? We can only travel at night now obviously and I don't wanna get stuck somewhere. [He held Sam tighter like he might disappear]

Yeah, you're probably right. _{[He tipped his head back, eying the other,]} If you don't mind me crashing in your bed, I guess we can stay here until tomorrow night?

Yeah...yeah that's fine [He forced himself to pull away and sat back down on the giant bed] You need anything before daytime happens? I don't really know how vampires work.

_{[He went to kick off his shoes before settling on one edge of the bed.]} No... uh, as long as any sunlight doesn't get it. It really hurts, man.

Yeah, no problem [He got back to his feet and started pulling the curtain closed on the few windows before kicking off his shoes and awkwardly removing his pants. He usually slept in just a shirt and boxers but sharing a bed with his brother meant searching through his duffel for his rarely used sleep pants] If I have to go anywhere tomorrow I'll pull the blanket over you, okay? [Once he was dressed he returned to his side of the bed and started to get under the covers]

_{[Sam hadn't bothered undressing besides the shoes. He didn't want Dean to feel even weirder about this and really, he was too tired to care about it. He nodded and huddled under the covers. He curled into himself a little.] Thanks, Dean...}

Edited 2012-03-14 08:24 (UTC)

[Dean stayed quiet for a few minutes, laying there in the dark before he couldn't take it anymore] Hey Sam? What's it feel like? I mean besides the hunger.

_{[He shifted, rolling to face Dean at the question.]} Overwhelming sometimes... I can hear things I couldn't before and smell things... I'm stronger and faster than I could have ever been as a human. It's a lot to get used to, but... I guess it's not too bad despite the hunger.

Yeah? [He adjusted to face Sam, a tiny smile on his face]. That's kinda cool. Like superman....with bloodlust.

_{[That actually got a laugh out of him.]} I guess so. Too bad the sun's my weakness instead of kryptonite too.

Eh who needs sun, right? I might all the best stuff happens at nighttime. [He smirked and propped his head up on his hand]

Yeah, like what, Dean? _{[He snorted.]} Wait, let me clarify... like what for someone who looks my age for eternity?

You're tall enough, your fake ID pretty much works anyway...you can make this work. [They had been talking about the age thing a lot, it was one of their main discussions but hearing Sam say that word still made his eyes widen a little] Eternity...jesus Sam, you're eternal.

Don't remind me, Dean. _{[he let out a soft groan, tipping his head back.]} I don't want to be... People live and people die, dude, that's what I want... not watch everyone I know get old and leave me. _{[And everyone he knew? Pretty much consisted of Dean.]}

Well...then you gotta meet some vampire friends, good ones like you. Oh! Or find some hot chick and turn her into your vampire bride.

I don't want vampire friends, dude. _{[He huffed a little.]} Not like I can put out a personal ad for them anyway... and I'm not- no. Dean!

So that's it then? [Dean frowned, laying his head back down on the pillow] After I kick the bucket you're just done with social interactions? Come on dude, that's not fair. And you think I wanna get all old and pruny while you stay handsome? That's gonna suck.

Dean, I'm a monster, man... after you're gone, then I'll- _{[he trailed off, hesitantly.]} So am I. I promised to stay alive with you... I didn't promise anything besides that.

_{[He laughed under his breath.]} What do you want me to say, Dean?

[Dean groaned and buried his face in his pillow] That's not fair. [After a minute he turned to look at Sam again] Hunters have enemies, what if I get offed in 5 years, or 1 year, or 6 months...you're just going to go to dad and get him to kill you?

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